my esoteric illusions

Everything that blooms ain’t pretty

Shadow of my thoughts

It’s time to take ur leave!

So real

Yet unreal

Dreams

That’s what you are!

An excitement spreading

A warmth comforting

A beautiful sunny day sinking

Into the gloom of

Black clouds and rain

A sky painted bloody crimson

 Pain mirrored in a faultless description

The setting, a perfect reflection

For the heart crammed in sadness

A mind filled in emotional madness

Tiny hands

Fingers distinct

Eyes closed

Yet

Innocence blinked,

A face new

Yet

Endearing,

Silenced

yet

Captivating,

A birth

Miraculous,

But to last

Only too short.

Been away long.. maybe a little too long. I see some of you have stopped following me. Well those of you who are still around for whatever reason, thankyou.

There is courage in admitting to cowardice

dont bother reading if you dont watch sounth indian cinema!

Spielberg eating idlis or simply science fiction tossed in masala is something totally new for the taste buds. Which explains why two hours after the movie I’m still undecided about my stance on it.

The story- it plays around a popular theme of moral uncertainties of science or simply nature versus science, remaining faithful to Tamil movie characterization. Rajanikanth , a scientist creates a super smart and wholesomely entertaining robot ‘ chitti’. This Tamil hero robot, first of its kind, but just like Vijay, Suriya.. he can dance, chant, be annoyingly sentimental and fight like Hercules. And when he becomes the villain, the rubbery ones in the tamil movies who just never die, this ’ bad chitti’ seizes the award for the most exasperating one ever. The second half of the movie concentrates entirely on fighting this love struck machine gone wrong.

The superstar- So science always cooks up the inconceivable. But this movie had way too many unrealistic scenarios. If u truly want to enjoy the movie leave logic at home! Seriously up until Rajini came, only a superhuman can do what he does. This robot merely helped completely open up the avenue to take his stardom to the next level. Unrealistically, yet realistically show off his superhuman capacities. Since he is held up there whatever he does it permissible. Yes, whatever! He can play donkey or god and people would still be impressed and overwhelmed just cuz its Rajani.

Rajini and ash!! Some close-up of Rajini did give me the goose bumps; even if they have done an amazing job in contrast to reality. In Tamil cinema industry, the women age in a matter of month , kicked out to be forgotten forever, while half a century elapses and the boys will always be boys, young , valiant, full of vigor, still going to college (with the double chin, pot belly and friends who are equally ‘young’) Rajini is an esteemed example. He is an actor who survived through time, literally! a classic example is when acted himself alongside Meena (baby then), who later starred as his co-star. So Aishwariya is an exception. A co-star to match his age atleast by half. Aishwariya s acting was brilliant and she was beautiful, But we are so used to seeing spanking new youthful heroine that her sloppy skin proved to be quite a distraction in a few scenes. If she is gonna remain in cinema, she s got to find a way to defy gravity and strengthen the failing collagen or join the make-up makeover with the boss himself soon.

Best aspects of the movie were the songs and marvelous picturization. The settings were unbelievable. The worst is it lacked comedy. I truly missed Vadivel, the ‘style’ and the rhyming dialogues.

If u have not seen the movie yet? well, it easy to be swindled by all the graphic into thinking this is some complex story, but this is no Matrix. Then again if you are going for a Tamil movie, you don’t expect or want that. Just like all rajanikanth movies, its remains true to its concept, simple, straighforward and swirls around a theme on humanity. But i dislike how he has maintained an uncomplicated story for such complicated graphics. Or put in bluntly what a waste of graphics for such a basic story. But again, considering its Tamil cinema and keeping the majority of the audience in mind it’s a well balanced progress without losing its essence entirely. So if you are even an ant-sized Rajini fan like me, this movie is a drag but worth rs 310/= but all in all I would have enjoyed a typical Rajnikanth movie far better.

Ps: actually an extra 50 rupees for a an hour of cutting and chopping some scenes would have been a super trade off.

For not in this humanity exist

The everlasting happiness

The undying love

Or the perpetual bliss

It’s all temporary

A relief momentary

From the heavy burden

Of eternal sadness

And I concluded to myself that I am a “weak person”. For years I spent my life thinking I’m not strong, I don’t have the self-discipline, the determination, the self-confidence, the courage. These were all qualities only the ‘strong’ enjoyed. But really what is ‘weakness’?  Putting it very simply, it is the lacking of physical or mental strength. People are categorized so easily in to groups of the weak and strong, is the word truly that simple? When you analyze the definition of the meaning, you realize the word strength is itself multifaceted and complex, so how can that provide a same basis for positioning anyone. Moreover the terms, strength and weakness  are  relative terms. Relative to the opponent, the situation and so many other variables. it’s erroneous to just deem anyone weak or strong because there are no set standards for you to calculate. You may be stronger than I am, maybe because your opponent is weaker.

Maybe I am not so weak after all..  maybe I am more sensitive than others, or simply maybe I’m a rough critic of my character. 

Consciousness

Of weakness

A Submission

Without struggle

Emerging

Only weaker

Only consuming

Until consumed

Wholly

 Relationships always seem beautiful in retrospect than it actually was. I wonder why. My best friend went out with this guy about four years back, and when things weren’t working out they broke up, years later she was back with him again telling me this time it was different. I wish it had been true and she hadn’t come to two month later , crying and forcing on me all the reasons why she couldn’t stay with him. You synchronize the reasons then and now, and hey.. they matched to a ninety percent with the first time.

 Is it a trick of the mind?  is the human heart shaded with a tendency to remember the good memories and  forget the bad ones? Possibly because it hurts us less and thus making it more appealing than it was.  Do we really believe that a different time zone will set thing right? Or is it our longing to love someone and be loved? .. or maybe we contain a sadistic nature and enjoy the pain we inflict on ourselves..

I think the people in my country are held together by the affliction instead of its victories.

A land covered in scars of two decades of communal war, a mass of population poverty stricken, children malnourished and forced into child labor. I guess it’s the many sad stories that bonds us